Kiiara Releases Debut Album “lil kiiwi”: Streaming
- American singer-songwriter Kiiara released her long-awaited debut album “lil kiiwi” on October 9, 2020.
The album contains 11-track, featuring guest appearances from blackbear, Felix Snow, DeathbyRomy and PVRIS.
She started to create the album in 2015. Kiiara told Idolator about the album in an interview, “The purpose of this album is to bring people into the world of lil kiiwi. Early in my career up until now I was very closed off and never really opened up to anyone. I didn't know who I was, so how was I supposed to let anyone get to know me? lil kiiwi isn't an alter ego. It's more a side of me that will always be there but is a little more tucked away now. lil kiiwi is who I was early in my career. With this album I want to bring my fans into that era and let them get to know that side of me and understand me better.”
Kiiara explained track by track for the album below.
- “So Sick” featuring blackbear
“I call this a playful, petty love song. Like 'You've got me feeling so sick, ugh.' It's something Bear and I would've said to each other a few years back, because we dated for a short period of time. By the time I recorded it, we hadn't been in touch for years—in fact I think he'd blocked me—but I still knew he would sound perfect on it. And thanks to some help from our managers, he was down. He killed it. He hit me up and was like, 'Sorry if I was harsh on my verse...' but I thought it was perfect. We're cool.”
“Don't Get Confused”
“I'm so over dating right now, so this is a girl anthem. Because men always expect something. There's always ulterior motives. Like, I didn't ask you to buy me a drink, I didn't ask you to take me to dinner, when did this become a transaction? This song is me setting the record straight: I can wear whatever I want and I'm doing it for me, not you. I love it because it has a lot of attitude and is more talky. It shows a different side to me. Basically, don't mess with me!”
“Never Let You”
“I went through a lot while writing this album, and this song traces it all. Wondering why it took me four years to finish it, thinking about quitting and going home—I just felt drained. Then one day I went into the studio and let it all out, freestyling with a few producers who I really trusted. It felt like therapy. The song wonders about what my life would have been like if I didn't write 'Gold,' which is something I think about a lot. What if I had followed a more normal path like my brother, who has a house and a dog and a good relationship? Stability just looks so relaxing. But I know the grass is always greener. Eventually I figured, maybe I can write about this and help other people who feel this way, too.”
“This is about me being the fucking worst. I met this great guy in 2016 and he invited me to dinner. He asked me where I
wanted to go, checked in to see how I was feeling, handled my mood swings, showed me nothing but love and patience...and I was just the fucking worst. Looking back, I think I was just young and overwhelmed by everything else going on in my life, and maybe a little scared because I really liked him and wasn't ready. If I could go back and do it all differently, I would. I sent him the demo so he knows it's about him. He said he loved it. Maybe there's a chance for us, I don't know. I'm down! I told my managers that I was going to name the song after him and they were like, 'Absolutely not.'”
“When you're young, you always want the rebel. As we've discussed, a good guy can be right in front of you and you're like, 'Nope!' Later, you wonder what the hell you were thinking; in hindsight it's so obvious that the bad guys were wrong for you. But it's the truth of how I felt at the time. lil kiiwi is about a very specific period in my life when I was experimenting, making mistakes, and figuring out who I was. In some ways, releasing it feels like closure, like I said what I needed to say. I always wanted to be an artist, but I never wanted to let people in. Here, you're finally in.”
“Numb” featuring DeathbyRomy and PVRIS
“Too many people have tried to control me over the years and it had taken a toll on me. I became numb to what was going on around me. I was exhausted from trying to explain myself and it felt as if people would wait for me to be at my weakest and most vulnerable to swoop in and manipulate my view on things. It was debilitating and I felt like I was in a tunnel all alone. I shut down completely.”
- source : Apple Music